Testing Testing Testing

This business of mindfulness can be a pain and an effort. 


Today I had to travel over 40 miles for an appointment. I arrived on time to be told that I was a day late !  Not my fault because I had the appointment letter with me and it said TODAY.  I had 2 choices - smile and accept OR be very angry !!


I chose the former and I suggested coming back another day - with a smile on my face. Inside I was cursing the stupidity of someone. Dear God, how the heck could this have  happened - stupid bloody people. What the h*** was I supposed to do now .............


Another appointment was made and I fumed for the rest of the day.  When I look back I realise that I could have handled this better.  I immediately jumped in offering to come back rather than letting them see if I could be fitted in today. Oh no not me. I handed over my power so tomorrow I am back to the same place. As I huffed and puffed around, there was only one person hurting - ME.


A lesson learned today.  I created the situation by CHOOSING to be angry. I hurt myself.  


The whole business of manifestation is at the forefront of my mind today.  


Thats where it starts and stops - in our consciousness.  We get what we let in. So if I pour negativity on a situation and then i wonder why it went wrong - duhhhhhhh.


This is why being in the moment is crucial. For example today, instead of letting go of a minor mishap, I held on to it and embellished it. At one point I caught myself on but that was after a good hour of inner bitching.  


Anyway as they say, when we know better we do better. I am sure of that now. 


Whatever happens, see the lighter side of it - is it really THAT bad? 


Be in the moment.